Not going to lie. My author journey kind of stalled the last couple of months. Not only did I start a new job, but I am also slogging my way through an MBA program. That doesn’t mean I’m not still learning. As I’ve mentioned before, the Instagram indie author community is amazing. I’ve made so many wonderful connections since launching my author account and figuring out how Instagram works. Through those connections, I’ve watched other indie authors have success with their novels, gained feedback on my own writing and, basically, just have found an entire social media world that does not revolve solely around complaining about politics and judging other people’s lives.
I’ve spent the last months, when I’ve had time, doing a lot of evaluation of my own writing. Identifying my strengths and weaknesses. Trying out tips and new ways of writing. Playing around with different styles and genres to see what fits. It’s not a quick process, by any means, but I’m cool with that. The reality is, whatever I release next, I want it to be well-written. It doesn’t mean everyone will like it. I’m a big girl. I get that. But I want to be able to be proud of it. And that’s going to take some time. As long as I’m still learning and moving forward, I’m good.
Which brings me to the reason for this post, which is the acknowledgement of the three personalities I’ve identified in terms of my creative writing. So, without further ado, let me introduce you to them.
The free-spirited writer: Everything she writes is awesome. It’s amazing! It is the best thing ever!!! It is unique and like nothing else ever put on the page. She gets lost in the words as they appear on the screen, sees what is happening in the world she is creating, and just knows everyone will LOVE it as much as she does. Rules? She doesn’t play by the rules. Rules are meant to be broken. Just let the words flow out. They are perfect as is.
The snobbish critic: It’s all crap. All of it. Third-graders write better than this pile of rubbish. No one will want to read this as-is. It needs a rewrite. Maybe three. As a matter of fact, just burn it. That’s right. Burn it all. No amount of rewriting will ever make this worth reading. It will never reach the readers like those authors you studied in college. It will never be as good as “insert popular author name”’s novels. What makes free-spirited writer think she can actually do this? Seriously?
The supportive reader: She shows up approximately a year later. She reads something that has been gathering dust and thinks, “Hey, this is pretty good. I don’t know what the snobbish editor is thinking, but she apparently has some personal issues she needs to work on.” Sure, there are some things that could be improved upon. No, it’s not Shakespeare, but, well neither are half the other books I also enjoy. The free-spirited writer should totally finish this and see what happens. Except the commas. There are a lot there. She might want to work on those. Other than that, good job.
So yeah, these are the three personalities currently taking up residence in my head as I move through this journey. It is my hope, eventually, free-spirited writer brings it down a notch and supportive reader shows up a little bit earlier.
As for snobbish critic, if anyone is in need of one, I know of one available for permanent relocation. I might even pay you.